Tulip's Tantrums

Yeah I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah I battle with depression, but the question still remains Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage? And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay? Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me 'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze Every wall that I knock d

 I don't really have any news that's newsworthy, but I'll fumble through in order to get a post in for 2024 before it's 2025. Christmas came and went without too much fanfare. It's getting difficult to have Christmas Eve supper and gifts. It's hard for Ariya and Hendrix to get themselves showered, have a story, set out Santa's treat, and get to bed before 10:00 PM if we're celebrating in the evening. So this year, we've started a new tradition: Christmas Eve brunch! This year was at Braunt and Breanna's. It was a lot of fun. Everyone was in their Christmas jammies, Bre put on an amazing spread, and presents weren't rushed and were enjoyed by all. The kids are who make Christmas what it is. Ari and Hendrix are old enough that they played our gift exchange game, and Lily was a little joy to have around. We bought Ariya a gown and she and I went to see The Secret Life of Christmas Trolls. It was a lot of fun. We love dressing fancy for the '