Tulip's Tantrums

All journeys begin … well, at 7:11 AM on November 18, 2005, I took one small step. And then another, and another … until in total I had climbed 4 flights of stairs. I decided I have so many exercise opportunities around me, I just have to utilize them. So, rather than trying to do something huge and monumental, I took one little step. At lunch I walked down to the first floor and then when I was finished eating my lunch and reading my book, I went to elevator and pressed the button. As my finger left the button I remembered that I wasn’t going to take elevators at work anymore, if I could. I turned away from the bright, yellow light and proceeded to walk up the stairs. It wasn’t as nice walking up the closed in ones as it was doing the open ones this morning, but I liked the feeling of getting everything moving again. So, I took a few more steps at lunch. It was all good. So, KVS’ boyfriend is over tonight and spending the night (he’s from out of town). I know you’re asking y

1. What’s wrong with your life? 2. What would your life look like if it were ‘perfect’? As I ponder the first question, it isn't difficult to see that there really isn’t anything wrong with my life. There are some things I would like to change and can, some I’d like to change and can’t, some I don’t want to change but should and many more I just don’t know what to do with or about. I have three beautiful, healthy, intelligent teenagers who are becoming amazing people and I’m sure will be great adults. My STBX was a pretty good husband and is a good ex and continues to be a great dad. I have a beautiful home and a reliable vehicle and a good job. So, there’s nothing wrong with my life. The second question is one of those that, even as I provide my answers, I know everything hinges mainly on me and my choices. Sometimes the way we think our life would look if it were ‘perfect’ really is anything but perfect even before we get all the words out. So, my life is not currently

Something to ponder: When are we old enough to know what is the right and wrong thing to do? Does it happen when we’re three and we steal our brother’s bottle? Does it happen when we’re ten and we get caught stealing a piece of bubble gum? Does it happen when we’re 15 and we get someone to boot for us or we start smoking weed? Or does it happen at 41 when you make a choice that impacts many more lives than just your own, such as drunk driving? Sidenote: Alanis Morissette said in an interview, “I feel like I’m living the life of a 45 year old with the emotions of a 12 year old.” Inner Thoughts: What happens when you open a door and realize you’re stepping into a space in the life and times of someone who’s time with you has ended? Someone you used to know like your very own breathe. Someone whose eyelash could flutter from beneath the others to silently land upon your cheek and wake you with a kiss. Someone you don’t know anymore. You begin to question if you really ever knew

I think I’ve just clued into something – reading other people’s blogs! I’m not sure if they’re all true and fact based as they just read like books, but some of them are absolutely amazing! I am pretty sure nothing I write compares with what they have and that my words are just a bunch of letters strewn together on paper with little meaning to anyone but me. I’ll try to figure out how to add them to my links or something to let you in on some of the ones I’ve found. I had started a blog yesterday about choices and society and opinions and a bunch of other rants, so I’m going to include it here even though I believe it just rambles out of control. (You’ve heard of incessant talking? Well this is incessant typing! *smile*) 11-13-05 Word of the day… I’m not sure what the word of the day is going to be. I just had to figure out a header, so that’s what I’m going to use until I figure out something else. Like every good rant, this one will ramble on and on and on I’m sure… Why do we

After reading the news , I find myself still very sad about and disgusted by Alex’s death and while I’m happy that his owner may get a new friend I know that the pain this man must be feeling can’t be fixed with a new addition – although I’m sure it will provide some measure of comfort to him to know that there are “good people” in our world. I’m disgusted with the amount of pedophile stories there are and wonder why we as a society continue to make excuses for these people and hold any hope of them being ‘rehabilitated’. Today’s blog continues with with a bit more about me and my perspective... My thoughts and feelings are definitely skewed as an elderly babysitter’s husband sexually abused me from the time I was 5 years old until around 10 years old. It was one of the worst things that could have happened to me and had a huge impact on the adult I became. I dreaded going over there and would try to make up any excuse I could to avoid it. Nevertheless, my mom was young and tryi

What are our days except segments of time broken into smaller and smaller pieces that pass regardless of anything else? From whenever you count the start of life, be it at conception, birth, whatever, from that point forward the seconds tick away. What happens during those seconds becomes our lives. Some seconds are better than others, some pass more quickly than others. Some we wish we could take back before they’re even completed and others we wish we could skip over or fast forward through. Nevertheless, the seconds keep passing, a few more here and a couple more there. Sometimes the time seems sporadic, but it passes evenly. Wow, heavy thought. Alrighty then – what else is new and exciting. Reading the paper and watching the news , we learned: · A couple had their hot water tank explode through the roof of their mobile home. Even more amazing because their bedroom was right beside where the hot water heater was. Thankfully it went up while everything else went out and al

relationship One entry found for relationship. Main Entry: re·la·tion·ship Pronunciation: -sh&n-"ship Function: noun 1 : the state of being related or interrelated 2 : the relation connecting or binding participants in a relationship: as a : KINSHIP b : a specific instance or type of kinship 3 a : a state of affairs existing between those having relations or dealings b : a romantic or passionate attachment Defining "Relationship"… First, what is a "relationship" anyways? A relationship in its basic form is the process of connecting or binding with another. The connection you make with another depends on your needs for a relationship - intellectually stimulating, romantically playful, trusting/confiding, sexually intimate, familial, etc., while the "another" you connect with ranges too - from friends to family to partners to our beloved pets. Relationships are at the very essence of being human. Humans are social creatures that want to belong

Good Day! Well, after forgetting my password and having to figure out how to get it back (and forgetting the password for the email I set up to link to this) I think I'm back and in the groove again. There have been many changes and few changes since last I wrote - some you know and some you don't. We all survived the summer, the kids and critters are growing like weeds, we have had another change in family situation (yes again) and things are progressing nicely toward some more birthdays (K & B) and Christmas and quickly the New Year! I see I've had a couple of posts to my last message - two spam type ones and one from a fellow Fort person! Woohoo! Good on ya for heading back to school to become what you've always dreamed! Hope you stop by again for a visit. I'm going to stop here as I've got bunches more things to do and not a lot of time to do them in. I will try to keep this a little more current, however we all know how that goes. Take care, stay