The problem with being happy is that I don't know if I'm happy because I'm level or because I'm becoming hypomanic. When I'm feeling good, I don't want to know why; I just want to enjoy my life and at that point, I am. It's important to pay attention to myself in happy times because those times are more dangerous than depression. When I'm depressed, I'm depressed. That's just what it is. When I'm hypomanic things can go downhill quickly. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, here's a wiki about Bipolar II Disorder.
Things are level right now, which is nice. I always have little waves of moods, but they're no different than anyone else. Ups and downs throughout the day. Nothing off the scale; I'm simply sitting in the middle. Having said that, I could be in the beginning stages of a hypomanic episode and am not recognizing it because things are going well and I just want to ignore anything negative. I need to stop some things in my life and add in new ways of dealing with life.
I'm attending a group that is teaching Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT)to help with that, utilizing Dr. Russ Harris's ACT Program. One of his books is called The Happiness Trap. I bought the illustrated version of the book. I found them to be easy reads, written without too much medical terminology. We'll see what I learn and how to apply it to my life.
Here is an article on BPD and manipulation. It's so true. Unfortunately, people don't usually read articles to broaden their understanding and perceptions, so they associate bipolar with specific celebrities and assume we're all like them.
A couple memes to lighten the mood:
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