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Resolution Delusions

I was snooping around another Twyla's site and found the following:

Resolution Delusion

Today I resolve to open wide
my heart my soul my eyes
To give myself the power to
Take my own side
Today I resolve to not let
My heart be broken apart
And I will take within me
The power to forget
Today I resolve to help myself
To learn from my mistakes
I will not be looked over
Or put on the top shelf
Today I resolve to let go of
All the wrongs done
And I'll be the bigger person
When push comes to shove
Today I resolve to push aside
All the resolutions past
I will listen to my heart
I will be my own guide

Last year and years before
I resolved to change for you
Quit smoking, lose weight
stop swearing, get a new hair do
I just couldn't see
past your own eyes
Turned upside down
Became all your lies
But Year after year
I slowly understood
That changing for you
Did me no good
So now I live for me
For this year will be mine
You are in the past
Now it's my turn to shine.


Interesting little ditty. So, how has your first day of the new year been spent? Doing what you had hoped to do or doing what you would rather do or what you had to do? I spent time with a friend shopping in the city. It was a good time and I'm glad we chose to see each other. I now have another offer but this one would entail staying out later and I'm just not sure I want to do that. I can take a cab there and back, or take the car there and a cab home, that would be okay too. I just don't know about being there and there always being so many people around. It's just weird and getting weirder all the time. I guess I like things a little quieter and don't like to have people popping by at all times to say hello.

The daughter is sitting here, drooling beside me waiting for the computer to become available (oh no, I am just reading what you're writing). The stories I've heard about KVS and her friends (so sorry KZ for the poop you got into - you have to be smarter than the bottle!), and first they're spending the night here and then they're not and then they're at one place and then another and then this friend is sick and that one is feeling better and the boy is an asshole (at the time, Momums, not so much anymore) and ... it just seems to go on and on. Were we like this? We have talked about that and how the kids just drink so much so quickly nowadays. And there are parents that are accepting of that, provided the kids are smart enough not to get AP and keep themselves out of trouble. I don't know - I think they're setting themselves up for a bunch of grandbabies and such, but that's just because I also think they're sticking their heads in the sand.

Here's another new year ditty...

A little less impatient
With those I deem slow,
A little less arrogance
Because of all I know.

A little more humility
Seeing my worth is slight,
I'm a pretty trivial candle
Compared to the stars at night.

A little more forgiving
And swifter to be kind,
To Try harder to understand the kids
Something I'm sure they wouldn't mind.

A little more true eagerness
To understand each other,
A little more real striving
To help a fallen brother.

A little more courage
For that which must be done,
These are my resolutions
I'll try to keep every one.

I came across a cute blog about a couple who are eagerly anticipating Devin's arrival! Have a look here.

Did your read the update on the latest fatality on Edmonton's streets? It's tragic. My most heartfelt sympathy goes out to Mr. Moulder's wife, children, family and friends. What the hell is happening? We have WAY too many rights for criminals and not enough justice for victims and those left behind. What is wrong with people's minds? Is there such an abundance of stupidity going around that idiots continue to think they can get behind the wheel of a vehicle after imbibing something? Not sure about the in-laws, but I know KVS called to get me to pick her up, but I was impaired by lack of sleep and so knew I couldn't keep my eyes open long enough to find the car let alone start it and pick her up. She called a cab and arrived home safely and long before curfew. Wow- good on ya K!

I dread waking each morning to the news of who hit what or whom and how many further murders and shootings and whatever there are. It doesn't seem to matter that our government foolishly spent billions on the gun registry, Toronto is still being inundated with shootings - so extremely tragic! The only answer I see having any impact on anyone is more severe consequences. If we have people getting 25 to life for things like this (and none of this 2/3 for 1/3 or whatever the hell options Canadian criminals have), is we have severe consequences or worse jail conditions, then maybe we would have less crimes being committed? What says you?

Well, I have the house all to myself! It is such a nice treat. I have been teased and taunted with an evening all by my lonesome, but someone inevitably ends up coming back home to their own bed, for whatever reasons. Not that I mind, it's awesome that they feel safest at home and I would rather they be here than anywhere else. It's just also nice being able to prance around without a stitch on and not have to worry about if someone comes home early or has 15 friends with them!

My bed and book are calling me. Toodles for tonight!

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