Tulip's Tantrums

Aimee Hansen of the Elephant Journal has written an incredible poem that really spoke to me. Eternity Lives in a Second Eternity lives in a second  the poet knows it to be so and tonight the earth shook for 80 eternities more than in 10 years say those who count years and the shakes inside of them in my corner of the world beneath the clothing line the rain poured on me as I stood outside in my soft boot slippers having run into the night afraid of the falling the way only buildings do this celestial planet she’s reminded me before she is always shifting beneath what we call ground beneath what we swear steady she too floats in the air anchored by nothing but her own illusion of gravity inside of something else’s field I wondered in that moment standing in the grass looking at the trembling sky feeling the drops of rain surfing the supple sway of dirt what I would say and what I would miss and what would matter if now was my last et...

What's happening in your world? Anything new and exciting? Any trips coming up? My world is not very exciting. Cancer screening blood work this morning. Mayor's Forum tonight at 5:30. Take the beast in to have the winter tires put on tomorrow. Rest on Wednesday. Woodsie, Owen and Nickelback on Thursday. Darrin's home Friday morning! Circus on Sunday with Auntie Jo, Ariya and (hopefully) Charlotte - it depends if Megan will be down then. We had originally asked Abbi, but her Mommy said no. 😐 C'est la vie. Wedding pictures are in! Drey looks so serious in some of them. LOL Especially any of the ones with me. Too funny.

I cannot believe how quickly the days pass. It's already September 2017, in case you missed it. My Granny was right - time goes more quickly the older you get. Our lives are busy. Darrin's been working away a lot and now has to go to Manitoba for a 3 week stint. Then hopefully it will be Grande Prairie - at least a little closer to home. He's getting tired of up north. Just too much of the same, I think. Well, he's got a couple change ups now, so that should help. Ariya and Hendrix are growing like weeds! Ari starts 3 year old playschool on Monday! I can't believe she's old enough for school. It seems like yesterday we were in Bre's hospital room meeting her for the first time. She asked Pōpa to be with her when she goes in. That's pretty special to him. Hendrix is going to love his time with Mommy by himself. He sure loves her and Daddy a lot. He also has a penchant for Pōpa too - must because he looks so much like Daddy. Before we know it he'...

Tensions between the US and North Korea continue to escalate, with many following the building tensions of how this will play out. Abacus conducted a poll of 1,500 Canadians from August 11-15. Totals for each question are listed and are broken down into sex, age, political leanings and if respondents are or are not following this situation closely - 63% are. A majority (69%) felt the US would take military action against North Korea, 47% that North Korea would launch missiles at South Korea, and 43% thought it likely that North Korea would launch a missile at the US. Those are interesting findings. I believe the US will definitely take action, sooner than later. As well, I can see North Korea continuing to be the bully by attacking South Korea as has been the case in the past . I think it is highly unlikely the North Koreans will fire upon the US first. Doing so would cause immediate and severe retaliation. In the ensuing fire fight, Jong-un would stand a good chance of l...

Just a quick note tonight to say that Dreytan and Joanna's wedding was incredible. They both looked phenomenal, things went off with only a couple small glitches (note: always remember to bring garbage bags to the hall for the caterers), and the newlywed couple is leaving tomorrow for a camping honeymoon in southern Alberta or BC. They're also planning a trip to Mexico in the winter. The pics from the photographer won't be back for a bit, but she sent a sneak peek that I'm posting. The photographer is Mikaela Sloat and she was incredible. Not only did she set up awesome poses and take all the "regular" shots (parents, grandparents, etc.), she did an impromptu boudoir shoot of Joanna, helped lace Jo's corseted dress, and tied Drey and the groomsmen's ties! You wouldn't know she was there as she stealthily (is that a word?) made her way around both the ceremony and the reception. She is a fun, personable, creative lady who I would gladly give a re...

Today I'm just going to post some quotes I've read recently. Have a good day. Toodles! "Eleven Hints for Life" 1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return. But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel. 2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go. 3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had. 4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. 5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. 6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don...

There's a lot of scary things going on throughout the world right now. Often I'll hear people say that things are worse than they used to be, but I think the media plays a huge part in this. 100 years ago people didn't find things out until months after they'd happened. As well, the media sometimes builds things up for shock value and ratings. Actually, quite often. Negativity is more predominant, with one or two feel good stories in a newscast. That's not to say there's not more crap going on in our world right now, however things that are "big news" nowadays were common place in the past. Racism wasn't reported on because it wasn't an issue. Same with LGBT articles - people "like that" were dealt with and there was no need to report on it. I'm not trying to say anything more than these were the "norms" of the past. North Korea is damn scary. They need to maintain their government and Kim Jong-un's leadership must...

I'm not actually losing my shit - it's a great article on the elephant. Unfortunately, I won't pay $2/mo to read more articles (I know, it's silly) so I can't see it again. The site is a lot of buddhism information and that's just not my thing, but every once in a while there's some good mindfulness advise. I do know that I'm more calm that I was a year ago. Being mindful isn't difficult but it is, if that makes sense. It's something I see that I've done for years, but now that I'm officially practicing, I notice the way it shows. Unfortunately, like most, I struggle: anger is one of my downfalls. I can be both slow and quick to anger, but calming myself is sometimes the hardest part. Especially with people I know, except pedos - I have a seething hatred for all of them and they, and their stories, are definitely triggers for me - when people I know are just so stupid I'm not sure how they breathe, that will bring out ill feelings...

The wedding is getting close now. Less than 2 weeks away. So far the weather looks good, venues and caterer have been set up, chairs ordered, linens and such are ready to go, dresses are hemmed and fitted, groomsmen are getting their outfits together, hair and makeup artists are booked, bouquets and corsages and boutonnieres have been created, center pieces, arbour ... everything. It's so exciting! Darrin gets home on the evening of the 14th. His suit is dry cleaned and his new shirt and tie are on the way. My dress needs one tiny adjustment that I can easily do. The rest of our family is in the wedding party, so don't have to worry about what to wear. Rob's the MC. I'm not sure how prepared he is, but time is of the essence. He said he's done it before and how good he is at it, but he's looking for a lot of information from Drey and Jo that he should be putting together himself. Well, I'm sure all will go well in the end - they'll be married and sha...

Author: Andrea Escobar Editor: Danielle Beutell How I Lost & Found Myself with Bipolar Disorder. I think deep down I always knew I was different; I always knew something was a bit off. My mind was always one step ahead of me and two steps ahead of everyone else—trying to finish the race before it even started. I would wake up at five in the morning, cook up a storm, and then start my day. I remember my mom saying I had “enough energy to power a small country.” They were jokes, but I wondered if it was “normal,” or if something was really off. One would think the diagnosis itself would have given me clarity and peace. After all, sometimes we have to go through the darkness to appreciate the light. But I didn’t understand anything about my illness other than what I was told: “You have a chemical imbalance, and you will be on medication for the rest of your life.” New doctors, same speech every time. I had enough pills to start my own pharmacy. I was on anti-...

So I've been practicing mindfulness  for a year or so now. I am not following any religion or theological path - just trying to live in the moment and change my outlook. Wikipedia Psychology [ edit ] A.M. Haynes and G. Feldman have highlighted that mindfulness can be seen as a strategy that stands in contrast to a strategy of avoidance of emotion on the one hand and to the strategy of emotional overengagement on the other hand. Mindfulness can also be viewed as a means to develop self-knowledge and wisdom. Trait, state and practice According to Brown, Ryan, and Creswell, definitions of mindfulness are typically selectively interpreted based on who is studying it and how it is applied. Some have viewed mindfulness as a mental state, while others have viewed it as a set of skills and techniques. A distinction can also be made between the  state  of mindfulness and the  trait  of mindfulness. According to David S. Black, whereas "mindfulness"...

I'm having a really down day. Big crocodile tears, sobbing, feeling overwhelmed. I don't like taking any more pills than I already have to, but today I took a little blue calming pill. So far so good. Joanna's bachelorette was a blast. Unfortunately, I had to pack up Sunday because of the coming rain. That caused a bit of a commotion resulting in Kiershyn, Savannah, Joanna and Kennda leaving. Bre and Braunt were going to get another site so the kids wouldn't bother us, but without my trailer and with guests Braunt and Bre invited, things just didn't work out. Ellie seems to be sick with pancreatitis again. She didn't eat her breakfast or supper yesterday. She had a good poop and I got to mL of electrolytes in her (she went and had a drink of water after - stuff must taste like crap to her). Thus far she's eaten a little bit and had a firm poop (I know, TMI) and a couple of pees. Maybe she's on the mend on her own. We're still going to the doctor ...

I think I know a lot about nothing. I'm well read, but if no one wants to know what I know, then do I really know anything? Me thinks not. I've been doing a lot of reading of articles today. Everything from CBD vs THC for cancer  (I thought THC was the one for cancer - it appears I may be wrong) and leisure and anxiety, to castles in the Netherlands. How chemotherapy may actually spread cancer. Wine has really made a comeback and so many women just can't seem to do much of anything without it. I wonder why it is acceptable to become so drunk and disorderly that you can't get yourself home, but staying at home and having a CBD or THC (or both) smoke is unacceptable. Being a medical marijuana user, I see distinct advantages to pot over alcohol. I'm not wrecking my liver, embarrassing myself, being promiscuous, loud or obnoxious. Oh but, some will say, you're wrecking your lungs. Gotcha there - I use oil tinctures as well as smoking it. The oils take longer to...