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Rants, thoughts and ponderings

Chewing with your mouth open.
Misaligned headlights.
People who tailgate.
Stinky people. Too much of anything can be a bad thing.
Liars and thieves.
Spandex is a right not a privilege.
The lack of common manners.
Hypocrits.

Sleep has left me alone to carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong … It's all I can do to hang on to keep me from falling, into old familiar shoes

Do you write everything in your blog or do you keep a separate journal? I do not write everything in this blog - there’s no way in hell any of you could handle my warped mind. Plus if you write everything about yourself and you’re an open book … what does that leave for anyone to learn about you? I do believe I could be more open in some ways and should probably be less open in others (yes, please many of you are saying). As much as I would sometimes like to write everything down in here, once the words are written and put online then they can never be taken back. At least when you write something in a notebook, you can burn it or rip it up and flush it or destroy it through some other means. What we don’t know doesn’t hurt us.

What about perspective? What is life but perspective combined with thoughts, opinions and experiences? Is perception the same as perspective? Well, let’s get the basics first:

Main Entry: per·cep·tion Pronunciation: p&r-'sep-sh&nFunction: nounEtymology: Latin perception-, perceptio act of perceiving, from percipere1 a : a result of perceiving : OBSERVATION b : a mental image : CONCEPT2 obsolete : CONSCIOUSNESS3 a : awareness of the elements of environment through physical sensation b : physical sensation interpreted in the light of experience4 a : quick, acute, and intuitive cognition : APPRECIATION b : a capacity for comprehensionsynonym see DISCERNMENT- per·cep·tion·al /-shn&l, -sh&-n&l/ adjective

Main Entry: 1per·spec·tive Pronunciation: p&r-'spek-tivFunction: nounEtymology: Middle English perspectyf, from Medieval Latin perspectivum, from neuter of perspectivus of sight, optical, from Latin perspectus, past participle of perspicere to look through, see clearly, from per- through + specere to look -- more at PER-, SPYarchaic : an optical glass (as a telescope)

So we know that perspective is to see clearly and perception is a mental image or observation. However, your perspective could be clouded if you were looking through something that wasn’t focused like the wrong prescription of glasses or after drinking. Ah! So, it is my perception that my perspective of … I think I’ve got it! I really don’t know where I was going with this, but it was somewhere.

I am looking past the shadows … In my mind into the truth and … I'm trying to identify … The voices in my head…

Successful marriage. Failed marriage. How good is your marriage/relationship? In dealing with my breakup, I find myself reading a lot of different information about what a ‘good relationship’ consists of. To be honest with you, I don’t know if I’ve ever seen a truly good relationship – at least not as defined by the majority of things I’ve read. We were pretty good at convincing ourselves and others that we had a good marriage. (Here’s that perspective thing again – maybe from our view we were making it look good – but others knew it was in shambles long before.) I think we were happy for much of the time. Unfortunately, we weren’t willing to compromise and work anymore. We had both had enough of the ups and downs and all arounds. All the words have been said … oh oh … now that I’ve written that it can’t be taken back. So if we get back together for a fifth time? Okay, nevermind. My g/f's with the bats will beat the snot out of me! So, what about your relationship? Are you really happy with your relationship or are you hanging in there because it’s habit or that’s just what you do or for the kids or why? Why do we continue in a relationship that isn't "healthy" just for the sake of being in a relationship? To have financial security? To portray a vision of a healthy relationship outwardly regardless of the hell you live behind closed doors? Sad.

Everything changes everything falls apart … I can't stop to feel myself losing control … In the deep of my senses i know

Well, I'm going to be late if I don't get this published. Have a good day!

Toodles!!

Truth be told I've tried my best … But somewhere along the way … I got caught up in all there was to offer … And the cost was so much more than I could bear

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